The Invisible Fall

(Apologies, I had this in paragraphs but the formatting doesn't seem to be working There are a lot of things in my life I have failed to capitalize on. Nobody analyzes the fall of someone not that well known. Except that person. Because they never succeeded in the first place. We can go on and on about how the 2025 New York Mets failed to capitalize on anything. We can look back at 2023, and 2022, and 2021 and analyze for our lifetimes how and why the Mets didn’t capitalize on opportunities. In my life, I would say the following are things I have failed to parlay: Acting Writing Podcasting (including interviewing the late Larry King on my first ever episode, and three subsequent times, this last one truly cherished because it was recorded the July before he died) Screenwriting Filmmaking Getting song recordings to the finish line Social Media Content Creating Yada Yada I all but abandoned acting in my 20’s after, as I like to say, I started smoking pot and writing scripts. Even though I went to LaGuardia, the Fame™️School, the same school current famous person Timothy Chalamet went (like 10 years younger than me.) For various reasons, I fell out of love with the art. Which also may be an excuse. I hadn’t written a lick, whether that be this kind of writing or screenwriting, in the longest time, until now. Although thankfully, within the last year, I was able to finish a script that had been sitting there 12 or so pages away from being complete for like 6 or 8 years. I all but abandoned this blog, which now just sits as an archive of a past long gone. I’ve had a touching film about my dad, a former bit part film actor fighting pancreatic cancer, in the can now since just before he died, 8 years ago. Of course, a tough thing to cipher through after watching him die, but still, it should have been finished by now. Though I can also understand the idea it’s going to be even better now that more time has passed. And I could have, this entire time I’ve been doing this blog, considering I once upon a time thought I could be a screen actor, been making Mets content on YouTube at a much higher rate than I have ended up doing since 2012. And the truth of the matter is, I can’t say I’ve tried. Let alone done, as Yoda would say. I can’t look back and say I truly put in the effort. This isn’t the type of thing where I have just been rejected. I haven’t put in the work to truly compete for the championship. I am 41 years old now. I started this blog the day before my 27th birthday. I can be proud of what I’ve done here, but only three years in, and the year they went to the championship, no less, 2015, I was hardly writing. That first year, 2012, I was prolific. However, as I say, we can only analyze what went wrong, but we cannot change those years. We can analyze 2012, or 2013, 2014, the 2015 World Series, the 2016 Wild Card game, 2017, 2018, 2019, 2021, 2022, 2023, the 2024 NLCS, or quite possibly the most disappointing team in Mets history, the 2025 New York Mets, till the day we die. And we will. (Both die and analyze.) We can, however, just like the ones in charge of this team, take what we learned and go from here. The future is right ahead. And I do know I can try. Or do, as Yoda would say. Right ahead the future is. Mets Let’s Go, they will. I’ll leave you with a comment I had yet discovered when I went to confirm the date I published my first blog post. I’ll have to find you, Mr. Jawitz. And here come the 2026 New York Mets. Only time will tell what we will analyze next. Or whether all of our efforts bear fruit. “Grubby Glove June 26, 2019 at 3:28 PM A great story, Sam, well told. Thank you for getting to the heart of the matter. One thing. I am not in support of #BlameSamMaxwell. It's like what Casey said to the team after our first year. No one person can be held responsible for this; it was a group effort. That was true then and I believe it is true now. A conspiracy of elements has combined to bring about what | laughingly and lovingly refer to a "Mets Karma." We all know what those elements are, we've all seen this movie before and for better or worse, usually worse, we're going to keep watching and rooting for our Mets. What else can we do? We have "Mets Karma." We root for the most neurotic team in the world of sports, and win or lose, we'll stick around. When the winning comes, and every once in a while it does, it's all the sweeter. I'm a Mets lifer, and I wouldn't have it any other way. Michael Jawitz, AKA: Grubby Glove.”